Today is Time to Talk day where the aim for the next 24 hours is to spark tons of conversations about mental health and to raise awareness that it is nothing to be ashamed of and talking about it shouldn’t be either. So today I ask you to raise awareness about mental illness, help stamp out stigma and tweet with #TimetoTalk to show your support for mental health.
Mental health awareness is something that is close to my heart as I am a mental health sufferer, I have Bipolar which means that I can go from having the lowest of moods to the highest of them with many other factors thrown in there. I’m not going to lie it is a very scary illness to live with because sometimes you might get to the point where you feel like you want to end your life which can lead to some very scary thoughts and when you feel better you will think to yourself ‘What if I did it?’ This stupid illness could consume me one day and that would be it. Luckily I do have good family and friends who would make sure this wouldn’t happen but it is hard to keep an eye out 24/7. There’s also the elevated moods that can be just as worse as the low ones, yeah I’m happier and feel like I’m on cloud nine but the excitability, being compared to someone who is high on a class A drug and the constant questions of ‘What’s wrong? You’re really different today!’ are the worst because nothing is wrong with me just sometimes my mind likes to not play ball with the way I want it to.
I’ve become great at hiding my condition though because people don’t understand it and a long time ago I was so ashamed that I had it, if anyone ever found out I would flip through the roof and have a go at them… Not my finest hour I can tell you that. I’ve become accustomed to knowing what sort of emotions are needed in certain situations I know if I am meant to smile I will put on a half hearted one or a little laugh just to show that I am ‘OK’ or feeling, what is it they like to call it? Normal. Well I am normal and I’m as normal as I will get, I am my normal and I am OK with that. I am OK with the fact people wont understand, I am OK with the fact that I lost many people along the way and I am OK with who I am because to be honest now as I’ve come to live more and more with my illness I accept that it is part of me.
I’m not going to lie though if I could click my fingers and make it all go away I would but I can’t and I am OK with that. I mean I am not ill all the time and I have times where I am on a steady level in between both of them, I take my medication like clockwork so I know I am trying to keep it in control although this doesn’t mean that it takes it away completely because I do still have moments and I feel bad at times because it makes it so hard to make plans with people to be in an environment where I have to be sociably acceptable for new people I meet. I mean I can go to work and I know I have to but if I do get too ill to be able to go, everywhere I have worked has always understood. The fact of the matter is I try and I can achieve such great things when my mind allows me to. I mean I’m not doing too bad I can work, raise a kid, hold down relationships with people and still have a laugh.
I guess what I am trying to say is people with mental health issues are just as normal as anyone because we are all normal because to everyone who they are is their normal.
Please I urge you all to tweet about Time to Talk and help stamp out stigma against mental illness, it really isn’t a nice thing to have to deal with. People are more caring and considerate about physical conditions and think when it comes to mental illness you can just get over it, well its not like my dog died and I will, its a life long thing for most of us.
It really is time to change and Time to Talk!
Anyone who ever feels like they need a little chat or just an open ear you can always send me an email, tweet, DM or message on Facebook. I know what a lonely place it can be especially at the beginning and I would hate to think that anyone who comes over here and reads SBTCD and has been supporting it for so long could feel like that.
I’m also going to do something I have never done on my blog before and that is turn on anonymous comments for anyone who wants to comment on this but feels like they don’t want people to know who they are.