So, I took a little break from what seems like everything over the last month. Basically, my life became too much for me and I needed to really take a step back and evaluate what I wanted and who I wanted to be.
I’m getting older, as we all are, but, I felt really lost and like I just didn’t know what direction I wanted my life to go in any more. Everything that I once thought I wanted was pushed out of the window and replaced with new plans, new dreams and new people. I had to really get my head around everything and just take some time to really focus on myself.
Last year was really testing for me, I had some major crappy points. The worst being losing my best friend and a major family rift that sees not one of us talking to each other. These hurt a lot. You know, people will openly tell you how much a relationship breakdown hurts but no one ever mentions what losing a friendship is like. Especially one that is so close to you, I was very hurt and very sad. My heart genuinely broke and I don’t think I have ever felt a pain or loss like that. But, hey ho! What will be, will be.
I was able to rekindle friendships with people who I hadn’t seen in a while, and I must say I have the greatest bunch of friends anyone could ever ask for. I learnt how to love again and best of all I learnt how to love myself, which really changed my outlook on life.
Now that the New Year has come around I don’t want to change anything about myself, I just want to live life to the fullest. I want to plan wonderful holidays, take day trips to beautiful places, spend time with people I love and just generally enjoy my life.
Oh, and if you’re wondering who the beautiful little pup in the picture is… She’s Indie! She has made our life so complete and we absolutely adore her. The cat’s don’t adore her as much, but she’s growing on them.
Happy New Year Everyone! I’m excited to get back in the saddle and write some posts.