I just saw this post over on Hayleys blog, she tagged everyone who saw it to do it and I really wanted to!
Basically you write a letter to your 16 year old self from your older self now.
Dear 16 Year Old Self,
Happy birthday! 16 Year old self. At the moment you will be sunning yourself in Ibiza on your first holiday without any parents, its amazing and your feet will hurt a lot from all the dancing and you will fall in love with this magical little island! When you return home you will find out a little while later that you are pregnant and want to die but its going to be ok your going to have the most amazing little girl you could ever wish for.
So your pregnant and its not going well, you don’t wanna tell your mum and leave it until your at least a few months plus you just fell out with your best friend over something really massive all is not well! You then start having problems with your pregnancy, its gonna be really scary and even scarier when you go for your routine weekly scan and get told you have to go upstairs and have your baby now. Everything will be ok, your mum will cry and be ok, your best friend will see you in the street one day, give you a massive hug and you will forgive her.
When you turn 17 you feel like everything is going to shit and you have no idea what to do you will get through it, I promise.
18 comes and goes, you feel like you’ve been let down a lot, this feelings never gonna go your just going to have to deal with it and find ways to get around it. You feel let down by someone more than anyone but you have always felt that way, its still debatable now as to whether your relationship with them will ever become better but they will be there when you need them in a few years to come.
You’ve turned 19 and decided you will get a Facebook seeing as everyone has it, you will wake up to a message a few days later saying ‘I know this might be crazy but you look so much like my sister Charlotte, is your dad Trevor?’ This will send a whole bunch of emotions through you seeing as you haven’t heard from your sister in 10 years, in her next message when she asks ‘Hows dad?’ You will not know how to cope with what you are about to feel and realise how much you hadn’t coped with his death, you will tell her crying your eyes out in a 2 hours phone conversation to Australia where you will instantly feel years of guilt go. It will all work out fine and will build a good relationship with her talking to her as much as you both possibly can.
Life will change quickly after then and when you are 21/22 you will get a job you never thought you would do, be friends with people you can’t trust, find out things you never wanted to know, lose more people you love and just seem to work your life in to a shambles. It will be the worst year of your life, you will find out your not very well and people will not be able to understand it which makes you feel worse as you can’t either. You will lose your life and your friends as you once knew it but guess what you find a new respect for your mum one you never thought you would have and you start feeling better before Christmas, when the new year comes you start to build bridges with people you never thought you would again, life is slowly but surely getting better.
Remember the friends you don’t see as much as others are the people that will always be there in your time of need and those are the ones that you love truly.
Love your nearly 23 year old self xxx
I tag you all to do this, I actually feel remarkably better afterwards! What would you say to your 16 year old self?